sorry, me again

hi. I think I have a few more words in me that I wanted to share about high school.

5:45am on August 21, 2012 

perfect make up, curled hair, freshly waxed eyebrows and bright pink skinny jeans;

I was ready by 6:45 even though my ride didn't come until 7:20 and I was worried my hair would go flat. 

6:45am today "15 more minutes" turned into 30

it was raining and my black jeans seemed to fit best, and one coat of mascara and pink Chapstick seemed suitable.

it was my last day of high school and being on time wasn't on the agenda anyways.

May of '13 all A's and my hair still curled in those perfect waves. my hair was to the middle of my back and red lipstick was too scary to wear to school. my brother still came to church and I wrote poetry on my history notes.

November '14 I chopped 8 inches off and my revlon black cherry lipstick was my new favorite; purple but almost black. 

I was also 40 pounds lighter and wore a state championship ring on my middle finger. my brother hadn't been to church in months and I emailed Nelson and begged him to let me into CW2 for 2 weeks.

January '14 he went from just a crush to a love in one night. his mom called me beautiful, his sister called me stunning, his dad said, "welcome to the family" and all he was brave enough to do was let our knees touch. but that was okay.

soon to be June he's promised to finally teach me to drive stick shift and three nights ago he held my hand for the first time in 7 months. He said "I missed you" and the way he pulled me into dance that rainy night was a reminder of how much I loved him.

how much has changed in these past few years of high school,

for the better

for the worst sometimes

in favor and out of favor

for the my own good

and for my own bad

it's changed. 

and I couldn't be more grateful for the heartbreaks, the crowded halls, my horrible chemistry teacher, Chip, Rhonda, Mr. Birrell's forgiveness, the tennis team, Mrs. Jaynes, orchestra, calculus, G2's, and a creative writing class that Nelson let me be in. 

it changed me, 

and I know this time it was for the better.